Six weeks. In Six weeks, I’m moving to not only a new organization
but a new city. Still not sure which city is going to be my next stop Pune or
Chennai. I would love if it's Pune as it's a place I’ve wanted to be in from
couple of years. Pune has always had appeal to me from due to the presence of
several tourist/visiting places nearby to roam. It was the place I had thought
of exploring and now here it is, Hopefully, I am going to live there for at
least the next two years.
But what about the place I’m leaving behind? The place I’ve called
second home on and off for the last 4 years that’s filled with more people I
care about than any other place. The place I learned how to be an adult. The
place I met my first love and felt my first heartbreak. The place that made me
realize that my person came in the form of an extremely caring and loving best
friend.
The place I’m leaving behind will always be near and dear to me,
even though at times we’ve had a love hate relationship. There comes a point
that either our job or our location or sometimes people around, are no
longer letting us grow.
Sometimes
we need to leave things behind in order to get to the place we’re going. So I’m
going. I’m going but I am scared. The fear of the unknown will always be
something that holds many people back. The fear of diving head first into
something that we have no idea if we’re going to surface or drown. I’ve
floundered many times in my life but this time I know that something great is
waiting for me on the other side of the world. I’m just not 100 percent sure
what it is yet.
You have
to take a giant leap of faith and know that everything is going to work out the
way it’s supposed too.
I’ve left this place couple of times before but mostly when
everything was falling apart. Right now for me I can say that things are good.
This time I’m not leaving to escape something, I’m leaving to find something
more for me.
I don’t really think it’s the leaving the place that gets me. It’s
leaving the people. It’s leaving a friend who pings me then and then some funny
lines just to check on me because she knows I’m stressed out. It’s leaving my
person who listens to me and motivates me when I really need someone to do that.
It’s the roommates who not only support me vocationally but also personally.
It’s like leaving everything altogether all of a sudden.
It’s something that you can’t replicate.
They’re always going to be there if and when I need them. They’re also the
people encouraging me to go. To see what’s out there. To grow and find out
where my place is in this world.
Moving is scary. Quitting your reliable desk job for your dream
job is scary. Falling in love is scary. Planning a sister’s marriage is really
scary. But it’s the scariest things that give us the biggest reward. When you
realize how much you could have missed out on if you had decided to play it
safe instead of going for something, you probably would always choose to jump.
So I’m scared. I’m so damn scared but I’m going for it. There’s something
big waiting for me. Just like if you take that risk you’ve been putting off, I
promise if you just go for it, it’s leading you somewhere amazing. All you have
to do is take the first step.
